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Saturday, July 28, 2012

It's been a big, long, exhausting, oppressive week.

This week I've been working at a daycare run by my school every summer. I worked there for two weeks last year and had loads of fun, but this year was kind of horrible (just absolutely horrible).

For starters, I was only assigned one week, instead of two, and therefor got less payment. For another, this was the last week of the program, meaning that massive amounts of cleaning and a "DO WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET THIS SHIT DONE" attitude were the most defining characteristics of the whole week. And, perhaps most awfully, I was assigned to work with the four-year-olds the entire week.

I don't like toddlers too much. One-on-one, I'm fine. That's why I love to babysit for my church friend. But for this entire week, I've been drowning in a sea of toddlers. That's a particularly turbulent sea. It doesn't help that they're not yet fully articulate, either. I hate to deal with a crying child when it's impossible to know why he or she is crying. And then, of course, in any given group of toddlers, there are a few set personalities that more resemble personality disorders than any person's disposition.

You've got Anger Management Kid:
and The Kid Who Doesn't Know His Own Name:








(Seriously, his name was "Charles" on the class list, and it was written on his shirt, but he still didn't get it.)
You've also got Not Potty-trained Guy:
And Inseparable Girls:
And That Sneaky Kid:
Not to mention Bratty Children and Children That Don't Take Naps Ever and all sorts of other Crazy Kids. So yeah, it was tiring.

But now, I have enough money for a tricycle!
I can get one that folds!
And one with a basket!
So things are gonna be great!





Sunday, July 22, 2012

The Murder Hammer

My father has a hammer, the handle of which is wrapped in nylon cording and plastic, as if he wants to be able to clean it easily, and doesn't want the fingerprints to stick. He didn't wrap the hammer himself, but rather, in a spontaneous act of good will, took the hammer from a wrathful homeless pimp who used the hammer for unspeakable purposes. (I was told to thoroughly explain to you that my father does not socially mingle with wrathful homeless pimps.)



ANYWAY, my father has no real love for the Murder Hammer, and leaves it lying around in strange places, where it provides an interesting coloring to every event that takes place in its vicinity. Recently, he left the Murder Hammer next to the place where we scatter seeds for the cardinals in the backyard, and it looked as if the cardinals were enjoying their breakfast while standing on top of the centerpiece of a crime scene.

Of course, I was inspired.


The Murder Hammer
When the sun rose in the morning
And light crept ‘cross the land,
One of the shadows that should have left
Lay printed on the sand.

It was a murder hammer
With blood upon the hilt.
Small pools lay all around it,
Where blood and dew had spilt.

And ‘round the pools of blood and dew
Was scattered a dainty treat.
For the hammer lay where, every day,
The birds and squirrels would eat.

Today they gathered round it;
They perched on the handle wood.
They paid no mind to the suffering,
But any human should.
 
Between the pools of blood and dew,
The murder hammer lies.
Where the pinkish water reflects
A picture of bird- filled skies.

And, while that was all well and good, it felt incomplete, so then I was all like"Hey! We need some HAIKUS IN THIS BITCH!!"

The Murder Hammer
When the sun rose in the morning
And light crept ‘cross the land,
One of the shadows that should have left
Lay printed on the sand.

The shadows recede
Each morning naturally
Unless they are cursed.

It was a murder hammer
With blood upon the hilt.
Small pools lay all around it,
Where blood and dew had spilt.

The blood bled on the
Hammer that bled on the ground
That bled in water.

And ‘round the pools of blood and dew
Was scattered a dainty treat.
For the hammer lay where, every day,
The birds and squirrels would eat.

A murder hammer
Is laying by the seeds that
The birds are eating.

Today they gathered round it;
They perched on the handle wood.
They paid no mind to the suffering,
But any human should.

Animals don’t mind
The implications of blood.
Humans know better.

Between the pools of blood and dew,
The murder hammer lies.
Where the pinkish water reflects
A picture of bird- filled skies.

The birds take flight but
The hammer cannot escape
Its own foul uses.

But even then, I could not rest. The poem needed a visual representation to strengthen its image. So, I present to you "Murder Hammer with Cardinals" in watercolor.


By the by, I think Murder Hammer would be a great name for a metal band, or album, or song, or anything really associated with metal. So yeah. Somebody make that happen.

Seriously. I want to see this.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I haven't written in a while, so I'm just gonna bombard you with stuff.



Happy Wednesday, everyone!
Today, I went to my church friend's house to help with her little girl, as I have been doing nearly every day for a week and a half now, excepting Fridays and Sundays. Things have been going about like they did the first day I visited.
Sometimes, I'm cranky.
Sometimes, she's cranky.
But I love her, and I could put up with both of our melodramatic bouts all day if I had to.

In other news, I'm saving up to buy my mother and myself an adult-sized tricycle.

And, in some other other news, Saturday was the 150th birthday of Gustav Klimt, the womanizing genius who contributed some of the greatest artwork of the twentieth century between 1862 and 1918. You'll know him best from these two pictures:
"The Kiss"
"Portrait of Adele Bloch-Bauer I"

Both of these paintings are from Klimt's Gold Period, during which, as you can see, he used a lot of gold. During this period he was most popular and widely accepted, and so these two paintings are the most well known of his works. However, he was an extremely prolific artist (though he was prolific in general. He had, like, a billion kids), so you should totally go check out some of his other stuff. I recommend that you read Gustav Klimt by Gilles Neret, which is the book that prompted me to fall so deeply in love with Klimt's work.

As an artist, I love thinking of Klimt's work and how it was made. The motifs, stylization, and color pallet absolutely fascinate me, and I have tried on occasion to recreate that effect on my own. As a tribute to Klimt, I began a sort of "copycat" painting, and I just finished yesterday evening. I would never absolutely recreate anything right down to its subject, but I have made an original painting in the style of one of Klimt's. The painting I made is far smaller than any of his (he used enormous, wall-sized canvases) and also not original to me, stylistically, but I hope that had he seen it, he would have been properly outraged that someone was stealing his thunder.





I made the painting in the style of Klimt's Gold Period, because the stylization is easier to copy and the motifs are more obvious to me. However, I'm fonder of his later works that lean toward expressionism, like this one:
"The Virgin"
I wish the picture was of better quality, because the true colors of this painting are absolutely gorgeous.

Enjoy the rest of the day (which, by now, is not much); I will be in a remote location, watching How I Met Your Mother.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

It's morning and there are whizzing thoughts in my head.


In exactly thirty minutes, I will be helping my church-friend with her adopted toddler again, and I just had a crazy thought. Both me and that little girl were born into a world where internet was pretty much a constant. The "superhighway" is here and it's not going away. So, I know there are people who are pretty old (like 65+) that already blog. And I know there are some parents who blog about their kids from pretty much day one. What if, someday, there are seniors with blogs who didn't start their blogs when they were seniors. What if these people had been blogging pretty much their whole life? Or what if a blog could be a family heirloom someday?
 
So, that just struck me as an interesting possibility. Usually, it actually annoys me when people start talking about how different things are these days, or the overwhelming repercussions of growing technology. Those topics can be really boring or saturated with Pollyanna-like enthusiasm, but when you have what feels like a personal revelation, it's hard to keep it in, huh? 

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

I added a new page! It's up there ^

It's not exactly a "Frequently Asked Questions" page because nobody asks me questions, but it's good to look at stuff handed to you by a stranger on the internet. Go try it out!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I just realized that the last two posts I've made have had all-caps titles. It's been an exciting week, I guess.

That is all.

CHILDREN!!!!!!


I have a great friend from my church who has adopted a beautiful little toddler from China! She's three and she's hearing impaired (plus no English) so communication is very hard. I was asked to help out with her today and jumped at the chance! I was already sewing a ragdoll for her and hoping I could try out some Chinese, so I was definitely pro toddler, anyway. So, here's how it went:








 And then we played with play-dough.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

BANGS!!!!!!! THEY ARE MINE!!!!!!!!

It feels weird to have hair in my face, but they ended up looking much better than I expected!

This brief interlude of vanity brought to you by my stylist.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Emotions of a metal spoon...

There is a whirring thing at the bottom of my drain that grinds up leftover food. I forgot exactly what it's called, but for purposes of laziness I'm just not going to look it up on google. It has a name, however, other than the one that I forgot, and the name is branded in a circle around my drain for all eternity. Its name is
In all seriousness I fucking love that thing. I used to have to scrape nasty rotten food off of plates and into the garbage and now I can just grind up used chicken bones in my sink instead. I'm living the lazy American dream. My only qualm with the whirring whatsit at the bottom of my drain is that it bullies my spoons and measuring cups. They slip down into the drain by accident and then when I start the insinkeratorthing in order to pulverize some mashed potatoes that are well on their way to being cheap vodka, the whole mess goes RRRRRRRRAAWwwwwwwrrMMMMMMmmmmmmKAlinkKAlinkKAlink (I bet that means something really horrible in Klingon. Then again, everything in Klingon is horrible.) And then my poor dishes look like the victimized interviewees on some exposee show called When Insinkerators Attack.
The other day this happened to a measuring spoon, and I had to try to hammer it back into shape, the whole time muttering apologies to the poor measurer.

Perhaps you think it's weird that I talk to my spoons, but I am of the Toy Story generation, and wholeheartedly believe in the souls and ambitions of inanimate objects.I am also a synesthete, a person whose brain confuses his or her senses so thoroughly that he or she (I think the non-sexist pronoun should be "it" but I have been told by my English teacher that this is insensitive to human beings) believes letters and numbers have colors and sounds, and air has a feeling, and feelings have appropriately corresponding colors, smells, and fratboys, and then the whole world turns into a giant knot made of embroidery thread.

Synesthesia is actually pretty cool and totally non- threatening, and you should look it up on Wikipedia, which will give you a much better explanation than the one I just offered.

ANYWAY,the point of all of this is that I have a totally logical reason, other than ancient Japanese Shintoism, for believing that my spoons feel the pain and wrath of the insinkerator on a deeply personal, spoon-ish level.
And so that you too may know what your utensils are thinking, I have compiled a handy-dandy spoon facial expression chart.
That little guy on the bottom right is just begging for some entertainment, isn't he?

UPDATE: Goddamnit!!! Now it's going after my forks!